Last night was Wednesday and Wednesday is group therapy night. As the clock struck 7, I sped out of the office. I felt sort of embarrassed about that, because I'm sure people noticed that I was quiet and left immediately. Actually, part of the reason I left so quickly is because I'm NOT sure anyone notices me. I have brought up two things that were important to me, and they were not followed up on the next week. I know I can bring them up, but one of the things I would like in this group is for people to remember and ask the next time, especially because the two things I am talking about were going to be ongoing. I even asked for accountability.
So, I've been one of the main talkers in the group. And I already mentioned that the other main talker is leaving the group. Next week is his last week. Last night, I was reminded just how important he is to the group. I'm starting to wonder if I want to keep on with the group, because the other members barely ever talk. We might be in for some really quiet meetings, especially if I start talking less than I have been.
I will have to miss our session in two weeks, so both of the main talkers won't be there. I wonder what that session will be like.
Either we will move into some new, better phase, or we will regress into total silence. I look forward to seeing which it is.